hear but listen

i just get really used to ignore when people talks.
when i'm not interested, then i'm not interested.
i hear you. i hear. i just hear you but i don't listen.
and i  don't listen for a long time.
and now, when i want to listen, i forget how.
i just don't know how to listen.
i just keep ignoring things.
i feel stupid.
i feel useless.
i want to learn new things.
but i can't listen.

i want to listen.
i don't wanna hear anymore, i want to listen.